And just like that- an entire week passes by!
Holy moly guys- last week was a whirl wind.
It was my first week back in inpatient and we were slammed. The days went by so fast and were non-stop. By the time I got home, I was exhausted. I spent the evenings making finishing touches to my case study. I was supposed to present my case study at the end of last week, but due to scheduling conflicts, it was postponed to THIS week. When I found out about the push back, my first thoughts were “sleep deprived for nothing!“, but after thinking about it I realized how glad I was to not be presenting in a caffeine-driven state of mind. I was looking rough by Thursday, no doubt.
As a direct result from last week, this week my weekly goal is to “get >7.5 hours of sleep every night”.
I’ve got that nagging feeling of not being at “my best”. I’ve had to come to terms with where I am at right now and lower my expectations of myself.
I’ve been drinking far too much coffee and Diet Coke and not enough water. I’ve been able to exercise 3 times a week (4 if I’m lucky), despite my desire to hit 5 or 6, and sometimes my work out consists of walking my dog. I’ve been eating chocolate like it’s my job and although I am a full supporter of having some chocolate everyday, I realize my sugar cravings are a result of not enough rest. Skins a mess. My ability to focus is dwindling…
Yet, I know this is temporary. As an unpaid intern, I don’t have as much control over my life as I’d like. I’ve been giving parameters to work within and sometimes that means I’m up until midnight and sometimes that means I don’t get home until it’s too dark outside to go running. Or I’m too tired anyways.
Still- it’s mid-January and I’m all the more closer to the end of April. I may not be the “best version” of myself right now (I swear I don’t always cry at the drop of a hat), but I have to remind myself I am doing so much good for my future self right now.
I’m learning SO much and I am becoming more and more confident in my skills. My hair may look a mess and I may be popping a Diet Coke open at 9:30 am, but I now feel totally confident walking into a patient’s room or speaking with a physician.
From time to time, I just have to remind myself of what my priorities are at the moment. Right now, it’s to prepare myself to be a darn good dietitian.
Shaping my perspective to see this time as a season of my life has helped me to release some of the pressure I’ve put on myself. It helps me to not feel stuck in a rut or like I’m falling behind in other areas of my life. There will be time soon enough to explore other parts of myself AND tend to every aspect of my health.
To wrap this rambling post up, how about some food?
Terry and I grabbed burgers & fries on Thursday (it was supposed to be in celebration of finishing my case study-haha) at Red Robin. We had never been and it was thanks to a gift card we got to try it. I got a burger with blue cheese, steak sauce, and crispy onions. The fries were great- they had some sort of special seasoning.
And lastly, a crepe for breakfast at Crepes and Croissants. My friend Rachael and I have started doing long runs together on Saturday morning followed by breakfast. I’m so glad I have her to run with because things can get a little boring after 4 miles. My crepe had eggs, mozzarella, and caramelized onions. She was generous enough to let me share a little of mine for a little of her s’mores crepe.
So you tell me-
What are the healthy habits that tend to drop off when your life gets crazy?